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For the past 2 weeks, I’ve been heavily invested in the old stories I believed about myself and that I’d bought into all my life. Been resisting writing in the group.  I’ve tried but ended up judging everything I wrote and erasing it.   This won’t be any different but I’m going to send whatever I come up with just to get myself back into it… Anyway, through the last few weeks, I’ve maintained my daily meditation habit and completed all of May’s content, but haven’t been able to reframe what’s been coming up for me.  Also been reengaging avoidant and isolating behavior that I used to cope with not feeling enough all my life. I think the trigger has been watching my kids grow up and struggle with some of the same issues I went through and that I never fully recovered from.  I may be projecting my past experiences onto my 6 year old, but she seems to be having similar issues to me at her age with connecting with friends. She’s incredibly sweet (which is where we differ at that age) and confident but as the school year goes on, she’s become noticeably less so.  She’s much more irritable and unsure of herself with other kids her age, always seems to be the one kid left out…. One of the learnings I took away from May that resonated was we’re all working out our spiritual curriculum.  Not sure how it applies in this situation with my daughter.  But it seems like there’s learning available here for both of us.  Knowing that doesn’t seem to make the lesson any easier to learn….