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Wes Richards posted an update 7 years, 11 months ago
While cleaning the house and waiting for my wife to wake up for mothers day after working nights, I decided to check out the library and watched the awakening worthiness webinar (which, apparently, I attended live and don’t recall and only know I attended because at the end, Bev addressed a comment I made). So it was my second time watching it but I came away with a lot of new takeaways anyway. The biggest was when Bev stated that her self concept is now based on her connection to her true self. This hit me so hard that I paused the webinar to make a note of it. This is exactly how I want to realize my worthiness. It’s already innate, my birthright. I’m learning to not attach my worthiness/self concept to anything or anyone outside of myself. Instead it’s my connection to my highest self, which I’m always connected with. Even in judgment, there comes the opportunity to become aware of my judgment and release it. When I do this, I connect to my true self. So really, I’m always connected with my true and highest self. In that way, we all are and we’re all worthy.
Lol, yes…it’s good to watch things over and over again because we get new nuggets and sometimes we learn that we attended live and didn’t even know it!
My self-concept is a choice. I used to be unconscious and connecting to my victimhood all the time. It defined me, and I didn’t know who I was without it. However, I did know that I couldn’t carry on this way and live happy, purposefully and live my potential. All things I wanted to do. So if I’m not victimhood and unworthiness than who am I. And so really began the spiritual journey that had been going for awhile but kept being clouded by substances, unresolved trauma and unmanaged mental health issues. I dedicated my life to learning about myself. Hence the degrees in Psychology, certificates in coaching and love of all things personal growth. Seems like you are having some new learnings around your worthiness and owning that it is innate. Is there any reason that you might object to see yourself as completely worthy? Let yourself go deep here because this answer might be precisely why you aren’t fully owning your worthiness yet.
Unresolved shame, I think. I was born highly sensitive, which I think makes me more susceptible to taking on highly disproportionate shame for minor things I did or in many cases, things I bear no responsibility for (ex. Being a man and therefore feeling responsible for the evil other men do). My ego is built almost entirely on shame and because it’s all I know myself as, I’m counterintuitively and subconsciously sabotaging my true self in order to protect the false self me that is my ego and who I know myself as… I feel I’ve made a lot of progress beyond this mindset and yet, when I checked in with myself to answer your reply, this is what came up.
This is HUGE! I totally agree. You’ve been defending your false self instead of defending the true self. Defending isn’t really the right word but what is coming up right now. Stand up for is perhaps better. Stand up for your true self, for your Authentic Self, for your Loving Essence, for your spiritual being. Stand up for your truth.