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I read this prompt and I thought to myself that I don’t know how to connect with joy. It’s not that I don’t want to but what came up for me as I considered the prompt was that joy, although I desire it, is not something I’ve yet allowed myself to explore and connect with. The closest I come to engaging joy, and this is as honest an answer I’m aware of, is engaging this post. At the very least, in doing so, I’ve once again brought my resistance to joy into my consciousness. But it really does bring me something very close to joy to actively tend to my process and connect with my Self, authentically. In saying that joy is elusive for me, I’m not saying that I feel stressed and depressed the rest of the time. I feel okay, good even, and sometimes great. But I just haven’t embraced joy yet.

I loved this prompt. It made me realize that 1. I had to really think about what brings me joy. It wasn’t an instant answer, which made me realize how unconscious I’ve been living that I’ve experienced joy but haven’t been conscious enough to notice it. and 2. It made me realize I spend very little of my time intentionally engaging with things that bring me joy, and more time working and working on things or distracting myself and wasting time. Yesterday after reading this prompt I left my second job, got in my car and realized I didn’t remember the last time I really listened to music. So I cranked my radio and sang along to a bunch of songs on the way home & loved every minute of it.