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  • Karen Haradem posted an update 6 years, 5 months ago

    I was listening to a podcast today entitled “Conscious Capitalism,” and the man speaking in the podcast mentioned that his mother would always let him know how disappointed she was in him that he did not pursue his college degree and instead pursued a job at Whole Foods to follow his passion of starting a co-op. He said he knew his mother thought of him as a failure, and in his “pride” he told her that he was happy being “just a grocer” (her words), and that the one thing he regrets since she has passed away is not telling a white lie to his mother that he would go to college she finish his degree and eventually become a lawyer (what she wanted). I was a bit taken aback by his response in what I think is absolutely not my responsibility…others handling of their own disappointments. I don’t see his original reply to his mother as pride. I see it as authenticity. To me, her reaction to it would be pride. Anyway…thoughts?!? This is something I deal with in my relationship with my mother, and for me, telling a white lie and promising her something I cannot deliver (the job she wants me to have), does me far more harm. I was so confused when I heard him say it.

    • Was he happy that he pursued the his passion to start a co-op? I am trying to understand the “pride” part. This reminds me of wearing the cloak of a parent. Not what the child wants but what the parent wants. Patriarchy comes to mind. Not in the sense of male/female but a disconnect from self, emotions, nature and voice. When I worked at my kids elementary school, I read the little mermaid to the children that we had to turn over to child services. It’s a story about Ursula stealing the voice of Ariel the little mermaid. She wanted to take away her ability to have her truth, her voice and her choices. For some reason this came up when I read your post. Re-Claiming personal agency, voice, truth and daily steps is one of the paths to wholeness. I am glad you know that a white lie isn’t the route for you. And that you don’t have to deliver anything to your mother – she is in charge of her own happiness.

      • Exactly, Tami. You stated it perfectly. That’s how I feel. As a child, I have disappointments also, but I don’t put those on my parents. I know my happiness is my responsibility, and I respect them and their choices and values, even though they do not align with my own. For me, this has involved deep grief, but has also brought tremendous growth. I think it’s okay for us to feel disappointment and sadness.

        • I do too. I was just crying this morning as I was writing my morning pages. The longest relationship in this world that I will have is with myself and its about high time that I honor that. That includes letting myself cry and knowing what is behind the tears, so I can release them. You state it so beautifully, it is Okay because those feelings are part of you and your human experience. We can have them, transmute them and honor them. We are so connected in our pain as well as our joy. They just are.