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Karen Haradem posted an update 6 years, 5 months ago
Yesterday when I was out running errands I observed something interesting about myself and what I was feeling. I felt like everyone around me was relaxed and authentic, while I felt like I was not able to do the same. It was a feeling of not being able to be okay as I am. Like I was doing something wrong and I definitely had that feeling of not being worthy enough to enjoy my day and have fun like everyone else. Like I didn’t deserve it because I haven’t achieved all of my goals or wasn’t doing what I “should” be doing. I didn’t punish myself over the observation like I would have in the past. Instead I just said to myself that maybe it is okay to just be okay with where I am right now. As this was going on I could feel the anxiety in my chest, which is something else I don’t recall experiencing in the past.
Where you are is more than ok Karen. Love your awareness. It’s a feeling I’m extremely familiar with when I’m around others. And I think it’s a great sign of growth that you’re able to identify where you feel the anxiety in your body.
Thanks, Wes! I was thinking the same thing. It’s a sign of my growth.
Karen, Glad you are here and sending compassion as you are uncovering what wants to be known. I get the shoulding on self. Glad to see you in the circle.
Thanks, Tami!