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2. How does this unfinished business show up in your current life?

My old story shows up in my current life, most prominently, in my anxiety.  It used to be depression, and still frequently is, but anxiety has been more prevalent and extreme this year.  Anxiety results from fear based living.  When I notice it, I’m making a choice that doesn’t reflect light, or love.  I’m buying into a story that doesn’t honor my present truth and that identifies myself with my past.  The past is nothing but one big story… In general though, my old story shows up everywhere in my current life.  It shows up in: how I compare myself to others; my indecisiveness; my avoidance of people and public places; how I play small out of fear of failure or embarrassment or rejection; my mistrust of others; the fact I remain in a job I despise because its secure and stable; my judgment of myself in social situations; judgment of others; my lack of dreams and desires; believing myself unworthy to fight for my desires and perhaps a huge reason I don’t connect with what it is I desire; my fears about raising my kids; my pattern of isolating myself when I’m triggered; my many triggers; my low risk tolerance; my lack of relationships; how I look for evidence that validates my belief in my unworthiness while ignoring evidence to the contrary; my shame over things that rarely inspire shame in others; my concern over money; my guilt for things I shouldn’t bear guilt for; the intense resentment and anger I feel but never express outside of myself; my sensitivity to injustice… And so many more. I could go on and on.
Open to feedback on whether I should be going deeper with these first few questions before continuing on with the next ones.