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There was something you said, Bev, near the end of the meeting. It was something about how our judgments feed our unfinished business. And just before you said that, I’d witnessed the insight that my ego can’t tolerate my connection to my true self and so its making my authentic connections with other people tens, or hundreds, of times more vulnerable than it really needs to be, through judgments. An example is that a common pattern of behavior for me is to isolate from others after connecting. I often feel what I’ve heard described as a vulnerability hangover. If, instead, I can reframe these judgments about sharing vulnerably and authentically as my ego’s survival mechanism, it allows me to release the desire to control/eradicate/demonize it (which the more I hold onto this desire, the further away it gets) and in doing so, I reparent the ego with self love and forgiveness that transforms my relationship to something (my ego) that I need in order to be a spiritual being having a human experience. It is the human experience part of that equation… So resisting it and judging it is feeding the unresolved issues I have with accepting my humanness, my human experience…