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Just finished listening to the replay of call #2 from May, and wanted to share what was coming up for me.

I have to continually remind myself that recovery is a daily practice. Often, I find myself thinking that it’s a one time thing that I’m supposed to “get” instead of a daily practice and consistent work. It reminds me of when I first started working my job 13 years ago with kids in the “Positive Attitudes for Success” program here in our local school district. When I would give a child direction, I expected them to “get it” the first time and there would be no need for me to repeat it ever again. My coworker NOT so gently reminded me (ha) that I will have to give the direction over and over again every day. Perhaps I didn’t want to expend the effort with the kids because I didn’t think they were worth it. Obviously, for me to get into the situations that led me to recovery, I must not have felt that I was worth it either. So, I have to consistently remind myself each and every day that I am worth this effort…this process…this journey. Those kids are for sure worth it, and I’m glad I know it now and am not as hard on them as I have been to myself as well.

I related to so much of what Bev said about her process going from terms of self-care to spiritual. My process is much the same. I focused for a long, long time on the hurt that I had from my life experiences and what others had done to me instead of seeing the opportunity I had in front of me to connect with a higher source of my higher self and see the possibilities of what could happen in my life when I focus on my purpose instead. Why am I here, what am I supposed to be doing, how can I make a difference? Those types of questions. I don’t think I had a clue about the impact I am making on others…it is huge…and I was spending my time feeling sorry for myself and not accepting the gifts the universe was sending my way. The daily work is so important for me and I have to remember that I’m not going to get it all right the first time…or the millionth time either…because I am always learning…as we alll are. Very much could relate to Bev’a story about her brother. I’ve experienced a lot of growth in that area as well.

Also could relate to Jennifer’s share about meetings and also preparing myself and knowing when I need to switch it up. It all goes back to me and what I am doing on a daily basis.