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2017 wrap up

1.  Accomplishments:

– Changing my relationship to alcohol.  Coming to finally see my use of alcohol for the liability to my consciousness it was rather than simply the “stress reliever” I had myself wanting to believe it was.   Going from 2 to 4 (sometimes more) drinks per day to 0 to 5 drinks (but never more) per month.  

– Finally, after 41, 42 years, honoring and embodying my physical self.  I’m proving to myself, perhaps for the first time, that I can effect positive change and have it result in a new, empowering habit that supports my best self.  I’m experiencing energy I’ve never felt before, eating foods that support my body (and saying no with surprising regularity and ease to foods and drinks that I once would have called an addiction ie.  Sugar, chips, pop, alcohol, etc).  I’m also experiencing, through the adoption of proper nutrition and regular exercise, the loss of 44 lbs in 3 months and a dramatic transformation in my body composition.  This is huge for me because its a reflection (or extension or byproduct) of the work I’ve done over the past few years on my mental, emotional and spiritual growth, during which time I mostly ignored, resisted and rejected my body, almost daring it to give up on me.  It also affirms my innate confidence and capability to form positive habits that support my growth and reflect intentional action on my part. 

– I’ve made significant progress in all the dimensions of well being when compared with where I would have rated myself in those areas at the beginning of the year.  I feel more balance than at any other point in my life. 

– I am more confident, peaceful, self assured, worthy, joyful, grateful.   

2.  I’m leaving behind my belief in my body as something limiting (and limited), as something to be dissociated and separate  from.  I’m moving into an acceptance and appreciation for it as an extension of my true self as opposed to mistaking it for who I am in my totality and using that against myself as a way to support my story of inadequacy and unworthiness.   

I’m releasing an attachment to my story of unworthiness and claiming my worthiness by expressing it through who I am and how I show up. 

I’m releasing the belief that I’m not confident or that confidence is something I either have or don’t have (rather than something I am).  This means I’m choosing to be confident. 

I’m leaving behind the belief that peace is something to be found outside of myself through circumstances beyond my control.  Truth is peace is a natural expression of who I am and something I can make the choice to access in any moment, even during “chaos”. 

I’m letting go of comparison and honoring my unique path and life expression.  I do this through nonjudgment of myself and others by realizing we are all doing the best we can at out current respective levels of consciousness.  

I’m letting go of making meaning out of things.  Appreciating things, people, events or circumstances for being exactly as they are and recognizing them all as my teachers.   

I’m releasing my attachment to shame to keep me separate and special.

3.  Experience I want to have in 2018 is flow.  This means not having anything figured out but allowing the process to unfold, and trusting that it will, with intentional action that flows into more intentional action, for the greatest good of all.  I hope this experience of ease and flow as I take intentional actions flows into me expressing my Self through meaningful, purpose driven work in service to myself and others stepping into the best versions of ourselves, whatever that looks like. 

4.  What I see this looking like is moving intentionally forward towards goals like coaching without attachment to whether that happens or what it ends up looking like when it does.  It looks like me taking steps in that direction that lead to the next step and the next step and so on.  For the moment, it looks like me taking certification courses that are related to coaching, exploring a network marketing business aligned with my values, and continuing to make new and authentic connections that support my learning and growth in some way.  It feels like being open to wherever these actions lead.   It feels like an expression of my truth and purpose.  This feels like joy, service, authenticity, learning, growth and peace.  I hear people telling me their stories and myself asking them powerful questions with the knowledge that they have the resources to answer them in empowering ways they might not otherwise have considered.