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I revisited my inner child today.  During the meditation, it wasn’t always clear what was coming up for me.   But my focus was different too, in that I was more focused on what was important which was just my presence, meaning there was no room for analysis, doubt or being caught up in an old story.  This allowed me to not get confused by all the feelings and kept me in acceptance of them all without having to clearly identify what I was feeling.  I allowed them all to be just as they were as they came up for me and in reflecting on the experience, using my mind but without attachment, I’m noticing I was much, much more accepting of my inner child than I was feeling sorry for him or guilty for his experience of life.  My gratitude for him and his path also deepened into appreciation for my past rather than resistance to, or shame, over it.  During the meditation, I also felt the connection between us so that I recognized him and I as one, in the present, rather than as separate versions of myself separated by time.   It was a feeling of expansiveness.