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Hey!!! Want to share a huge takeaway that came up for me while I was journaling this evening after Bev did an amazing job earlier in the afternoon facilitating and holding a space for me to have this insight from our session. It also ties in nicely to her post about blindspots a few posts back so consider this my contribution to that! Super excited about it:
One of the stories that came up for me after talking to Bev was that I like being alone, especially with regards to work, because I’m introverted and I like using the time for self care and to work on myself. There’s certainly truth to that. But when I looked deeper I realize that I see other people as a threat, an impediment, an obstacle to be avoided, to my self development, self growth, self actualization, unless… those people are like minded in some way or inspire me. I resent people who aren’t likeminded, who seem more often confrontational than kind because of the old stories I have about myself in relationship to those types of people growing up, seeing them as having held me back or impacted me negatively, and seeing myself as powerless and inferior and unworthy in comparison to them. And at work, I resent the time that I have to come into contact with people in a working relationship (because I let their energy affect mine negatively) rather than embracing this time I get (ahh, see what I did there 😉) to spend in a working relationship with them as an opportunity to grow myself by being a loving mirror. There’s the reframe. They’re only threats to me and my energy because of the stories that come up for me, the judgments that I form, in relation to whatever of their stuff bumps up against mine. I can reframe and change my relationship to how I see people, particularly the ones I work with. I know intuitively that they’re doing the best they can from their level of consciousness. I know intuitively that they’re divine beings, even if they don’t. It shouldn’t matter if they don’t. My job is to look for that in them and to treat that as if its all I see. Anything else and its just a case of my ego recognizing their ego, and worse, competing against it. Coming from spirit will mean letting them have their experience. And letting them have their experience will be one thing. The challenge will be letting them have their experience of me. But that’s what I have to do in order to not make their experience and their stuff mean anything about me, and seeing them as the divine being as they are means honoring their experience without it meaning anything about them. And of course, I can just be the divine observer of my own expression of the universe through this life of mine.