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I’m caught up on the most recent calls and the last week of the worthiness calls. So, the first call about unfinished business was a lot of information. I will need some time to think more about my unfinished business. I know that I can “feel” some unfinished business in my life, especially the last year, yet I also know that I am healing and not coping because I have been through that process of my heart being “broken” and then coming out on the other side with a compassion for others and what they are going through. The person I used to be and the person I am now are completely different and on most days I am in the present and find joy. However, I do still have persistent sadness and am grieving some unfinished business. It’s hard for me to put it into words, but I do know what it is and why. I will try and put it into words by using the worksheets, so that I can share my process with you all. I am noticing some patterns that are still in my life and am feeling some confusion about them now after the call, because I have been noticing an uneasiness in my interactions with other people where I’m unable to stay in the present and am quite uncomfortable and feeling deep sadness, grief, and some anxiety in those interactions. I do feel I’m doing a good job of re-framing and shifting my thoughts when they come up. I’m aware of and understand why I am feeling what I am feeling in each moment, with the exception of the times where there seems to be some unfinished business. As I’m typing this, I’m wondering how my unfinished business and self-forgiveness tie together. Self-forgiveness has not been an easy process for me. Releasing my old story is still a work in progress for me. I do feel like I hang on to it and repeat old patterns. As for coping vs healing, I do feel that in most interactions I am in a different place and am no longer triggered by old wounds, and if I am I know how to deal with them and handle them appropriately. However, there are a few areas, especially in regards to family members, where I am still coping and not healing. This is the major unfinished business for me. I will spend more time this week writing down my unfinished business and judgments, and share them later in the week.