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Jane Cornelius posted an update 8 years ago
Here are my list of 3 external & internal clutter things to complete:
External clutter…1.Under my bed, 2. Tupperware cabinet, 3. Trunk of my car. Internal clutter…1. Heal this overall sense of unworthiness, 2. Let go of the guilt & shame I’ve been carrying around. Some I need to forgive myself and move on and some really isn’t mine to carry around, 3. This one is harder, I wanted to put resolve some codependency issues or recover from some food addiction issues, but I feel like the underlying thing I need to complete is a general emptiness I feel that I can never fill. I think it ties in with #1 the unworthiness too. I feel like if I complete the feeling of emptiness somehow the other things will be easier to resolve…Not sure how to clear any of it really but I trust this process.
Jane, so appreciate you sharing so much clarity on the inner stuff that needs to be clear. Knowing is half the battle, as they say! Shame, unworthiness and filling the inner void were all things I experienced too. I’m happy to report that they can be resolved. You identifying them, acknowledging and calling it out will begin the process of having intention to resolve these things. We don’t always know how to do but support will be revealed along the way via a book, a person, a community, etc. As I shared already, the inner work will be continuous so there are no expectations on ourselves that we need to learn how to resolve all of this right now. These are actually life lessons for you so you will find many opportunities where unworthiness, shame and filling the void come forward. You are in the process of learning to resolve your worthiness, learn to love yourself and fill your inner self with things that bring you immense joy.
Thanks, putting it out there and reading your reply are like breathing a big sigh of relief. Like ok I’m not stuck here. I get to move forward now.
You are only stuck there if you choose victim consciousness over creator consciousness. This is may be a new concept so living it and learning it takes practice, which you are doing. Stuck can’t live in creator consciousness. That’s why you will hear me always say look for the learning. When I say that, I’m asking you to look for the learning of your soul or spirit. When we take this higher perspective we can be above the ego and not get sucked into our humanness. This is a day to be celebrated, where you call out the root issues and know what work needs to be resolved. Continue to choose to resolve worthiness and it will be healed by all the awareness, love and compassion you are offering that part of you that has felt unworthy.
Thanks for pointing that out Bev. I think I always associate victim consciousness as blaming someone else which I don’t feel like I do, but I get that by not owning being a creator I’m choosing victim consciousness regardless of blaming or not blaming. That’s a huge point I didn’t get until now. It’s just like what you coached me on in last month’s call where I was stuck with doing the spiritual practice, I just had to do it and practice instead of waiting around for the motivation. So I will practice worthiness, etc and work on creating my new reality instead of being stuck. It feels so uncomfortable but I know that’s a good thing, I do believe growth happens in the discomfort.
When you reference filing the inner void – SHOPPING for clothes comes to mind for me. Once a major issue for me, I have tamed it quite a bit over the past few months. I have enough! I am enough! Thanks for sharing Jane. Your comments stirred me up a bit too 🙂