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Self care this week has been a lot of taking care of my body in different ways. Stretching every night before bed, taking vitamins every day, going to the gym to run/walk, getting a haircut & new color, and using some new skin care products. It also included some spiritual care…coloring with my 4 year old niece, meditating, and listening to music, and listening to the replay from this week’s call.

It was perfect that the call was about ownership and intention. This past week I felt like at the end of each day i would reflect on what self care i had done, but that i wasn’t being intentional with self care, and that’s okay, but I do want to bring more intention and ownership to self care as a part of my healing. Today was a really hard day FULL of anxiety for some reason. I went to the gym to get some of it out of my body but my mind was racing with all kinds of thoughts and judgements about different things. But I felt like I handled it differently. Instead of binging on food or finding people/activities to avoid dealing with those feelings, I went home and let myself be with the thoughts but with the intention to do it differently and to heal. So instead of just ruminating and going down a depressed/negative/judgement rabbit hole, I would have the thoughts for a little while, then remind myself they’re not necessarily true, and remind myself what my intention for how I want to be is, and then I’d feel relief. Then it would happen again, and I’d let them go again and come back to how I want to be. Hard to explain in this post, but I am so committed to healing now, I just want to do whatever it takes to do things differently. Appreciative to have learned so many tools here.