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I’ve been reflecting a lot on this the past couple of days while I work on my internal clutter list. On the worksheet I wrote down my external clutter list and thought of a few more things to add. I’ve written down some things on the internal list but I need to really get in touch with what’s coming up. Some of it is sort of surface situations that I know have a deeper issue behind them that I need to heal or complete. So I’m going to keep reflecting and give myself some more time to get clear I think.

I learned unworthiness early on. Because of this, I could only vaguely connect with a deeply elusive sense of purpose. Believing my worthiness had to be earned, and not believing myself worthy of having it, I stayed hidden away, safe and small, removed from, but always aware of, my potential and purpose.

I think I’ve historically reacted from a place of fear. Whether it be fear of abandonment, fear of looking inadequate or stupid, or fear of whatever else. I never thought that I did, but now I’m starting the see that I’ve always come from a place of victim instead of creator.